Just...Me...

2009-12-07T17:20:00.003+08:00

with 324 posts since aug 2006,i'm now shifting to tumblr,follow me there =))

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Jamie[: xoxo

2009-12-06T12:15:00.002+08:00

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use if you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live

Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive

Because you live, I live, I live

stop messing with that *****

2009-11-30T22:25:00.001+08:00

so who do i pick
between the two
because i don't wanna make the wrong choice
don't wanna hurt the wrong one

2009-11-23T00:01:00.001+08:00

will you give me the chance to ask?
will you forgive yourself to love?
will you??

2009-11-16T23:41:00.002+08:00

I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
And as I say it louder I love how it sounds
Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to say
Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God know we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no, as no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this, it's easier to see the reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

2009-11-16T23:30:00.001+08:00

I've been waiting for my dreams
To turn into something

I could believe in
And looking for that
Magic rainbow
On the horizon
I couldn't see it
Until I let go
Gave into love and watched all the bitterness burn
Now I'm coming alive
Body and soul
And feelin' my world start to turn

And I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time
To be more than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

Holding onto things and vanished
Them to the air
Left me in pieces
But now I'm rising from the ashes
Finding my wings
And all that I needed
Was there all along
Within my reach
As close as the beat of my heart

And I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

And I'm out on the edge of forever
Ready to run
I'm keeping my feet on the ground
My arms open wide
My face to the sun

And I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
This is the time
This is the time of my life.
This is the time of my life.
Life
Time of my life
Time of my life

2009-11-14T23:48:00.002+08:00

somehow i realised something which is really ironic.somehow i used to tink how people can use the same excuse again and again and again...of which after that i call them no life...but it seems sadly that these days i'm doing that.when people want to ask me to go out,i just say i'm too busy with homework,projects etc etc

i've to admit there is time for work and play,there's no point working for your whole life and no play,but there's also too much play and no work,it's gg 2 ruin your life in the end.hmm,i just wanna say like sorry first lah,cause i really dun mean to put off going out with friends and stuff like that.i'm trying to find that balance between work and play.i somehow just got my life back on track after it was really turned upside down.i'm also still in the mist of finding myself as always,just give me some time

if you are reading this,ask yourself this question
Is the glass half full or half empty??
but i know my answer for this is always the same:
its half full because i'm willing to try
half empty because i haven't get to the final goal

2009-11-14T01:42:00.002+08:00

hmm,somehow i haven't done a proper post since sch started.the fact is i've been really busy with sch work,work and cca and project and e list goes on and on..oh well...somehow this sem hasn't exactly turned out to be best way i want it to be,but then again i dun have much of e time to complain much and i shouldn't be complaining looking at how much i've climbed from that deep dark pit...

i actually dun really know wat to say,cause i'm just typing wateva comes to mind...-after 15secs- okay my mind's blocked,blog post ends here,toodles ppl!

2009-11-10T23:33:00.002+08:00

take a bow
next to you
collide
behind these hazel eyes
the reason why

2009-11-10T00:30:00.003+08:00

我问为什么
那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么
不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我
不愿意敷衍我
还是明白
你已不想挽回什么

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着e
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛

我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥
谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔

我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得

太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说

2009-11-03T00:31:00.002+08:00

cause they tell me don't give up
cause they know my character well
cause they know i can do it
cause they ain't giving up on me yet
cause no one's letting me give up
cause they still want me to keep that dream alive
cause they're still waiting for an answer
cause they all just want to see the best in me
and lastly of course
cause i don't want to let anyone or myself down

2009-10-21T01:03:00.008+08:00

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FOR THAT ONE BLOODY EMAIL!!!!

2009-10-20T00:10:00.003+08:00

Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you've lost your way
What if my chances were already gone
I started believing that I could be wrong
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit you stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets
Don't know where the future's headed
Nothing's gonna bring me down
Jumped every bridge I've run every line
I risk being safe, I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule cause there's nothing between you and your dreams

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
No boundaries
Yeah, there are no boundaries

i realised i actually want it really badly

2009-10-17T12:59:00.002+08:00

i know i need to do it
i know i'm inching closer to what i want
i know i want it
i know i don't give up
i know it's going to be different
i know i have to adapt to changes
i know i've to keep on trying
i know someone is giving me a kick in the butt
i know its you i want..

2009-10-10T01:13:00.002+08:00

the day when i've to walk alone again,the feeling always hurts but
no one ever cares....
no one will be beside me anymore
because all there's ever left now,is just myself without anyone else.
one by one they all walk out of my life,without even knowing how i feel
the ending's always cruel
and here i am,picking up all the pieces again
hoping that nothing ever started in the 1st place
so that i won't have to feel all these now...

2009-10-08T13:31:00.001+08:00

just when i thought my life might have gotten slightly better,someone has to fucking hell screw it up -.-

2009-10-08T03:23:00.000+08:00

wah lau how come everytime u're always correct de....

2009-10-06T01:32:00.001+08:00

okay i cried,i admit it

2009-10-05T14:12:00.002+08:00

i don't know where i stand with you and i don't know what i mean to you,all i know is that everytime i think of you,all i want to do is be with you

2009-10-04T01:18:00.003+08:00

hmm,okay i'm back to blog again like for e 2nd consecutive day...
suddenly it seems like i've a lot to talk abt,a lot to think abt as well,its october and i've to reallie admit tt this year is a very rollercoaster ride.its like so many things have happened this year since the start and i reallie wonder what else is going to happen for e remaining 2 or slightly lesser months.

well its like so far i can see that sch's gg to be different,with so much more things to commit to as my gpa is currently in a very bad state and somehow its like i've been kinda slacking off e last sem...and and i realise tt it might not be as fun anymore considering like some stuff tt i won't say here.and since i'm so broke and like close to a debt of a 1000bucks to my bank acc,i've like no choice but to go on a major saving spree when sch starts.hai~ life's tough without money which is true,i didn't use to agree to it last time,but now i do.

okay apart from sch,i went to kylene's house 2day to help her sister with hw.somehow i realised that doing o'levels questions were like so easy as compared to e modules i take now and i somehow am kinda missing e times when i was still preparing for o'levels...its like u know how to answer most questions and stuff like tt.but wat actually struck me more was that her sister actually said i was like not bad at teaching her and eventually her mum was like asking me to consider teaching her sister on a weekly basic or sth like tt.i'm currently like still considering and haven't come to a decision.and because of this somehow i realise why Miss B used to ask me to go back to sch and help teach eng,but my eng isn't like very good and i use to fail my compre cause i didn't understand anything abt the passages.Maybe science might still be my best subject in sch,so i'm still sticking to science

suddenly i feel there's so many things in life i needa do,needa think about,and i need to get my life sorted out like i reallie reallie need to..well tts my situation currently,unfortunately or fortunately

how big you make it,is all about how far you take it

2009-10-03T00:09:00.000+08:00

okay i'm learning how to drive,yes yes its truth
JAMIE CHOI IS LEARNING HOW TO DRIVE
and i'm learning the manual one

oh and apparently some funny stuff happens at the bukit batok driving centre when me and Kylene were signing up for our driving,if we have to change anything after it's finalised it cost us $10.70 like almost EVERYTHING...and and e lady at e counter was telling us like

Lady points to me:after u get ur license,u can drive manual and auto cars
Lady points to kylene:after u get ur license u can ONLY drive auto cars

which i found it quite funny cause like obviously no idiot will go learn auto and drive a manual car after tt,unless e person's insane but like they won't even let e person take the test in e 1st place!!

oh and idk when i'm gg to get my license but some day,i'm gg to get my Lexus IS250
i'll get it someday,some how!!!
oh oh let me show u in like white and black,this car actually got me and ying li talking abt it all night ytd =))

2009-09-30T02:09:00.002+08:00

u get me so hypnotised
u make me feel incomplete
i'm trippin' over you
but best of all,u know its not impossible
are u falling for me alr?

2009-09-26T04:22:00.002+08:00

its 0422 now and i can't slp cause my eye too pain to even close it,dangg....

i know u'll do wateva u wanna do as long as u follow ur heart cause we all believe in you =))

2009-09-23T01:59:00.001+08:00

suddenly everything changed in a snap,and its not just 1 thing,but like 3things?
too coincident or wat?

2009-08-31T15:16:00.002+08:00

okay this is gg to be a reallie short post before i get out of e house

anw,exams are well over since fri and i hate potluck at elias house,it was fun and now we know who can't cook eh??^^ but yea my holidays are starting 2 be packed alr,no chance for me to go find a job also =/ anw,ytd i swear it was super dumb,my 12km run got cancelled all thanks to the rain,seriously like wth lah -.- me and alee were like nbcb and cursing and swearing at the organisers....

aside from that ytd was quite okay,got my cup of coffee frap from starbucks and dip plus 2day was alright as well....okay gotta run soon!!!and i'm so excited to meet kylene for movie 2moro and yingli,jieying and elias for board games at night =)) oh oh and liquid kitchen on wed!!!hahahaha,anw i'm so gg 2 spend a lot of money when i get to hongkong this fri...wheeee
p.s. i tink my atm machine's gg 2 complain soon,better get a slice for cheesecake for the machine =))

2009-08-22T21:11:00.001+08:00

32011

2009-08-19T01:14:00.003+08:00

hmmm,my heart's kinda aching a little now...
sometimes i hate fb
all e random stuff also can come out one
then i dun exactly like random stuff tt can like bring me back 2 e past
nptribune also,i'm nvr gg 2 read e online version...
i'm sorry i'm selfish but i rather live in the present to run away from my past problems
maybe that's better,it might let my wounds heal a little

2009-08-18T02:35:00.002+08:00

Where will we all be in March 2009?
and i know if there was one thing i had to fight for,this was it
i fight with everything i've got
no more miss nice girl
no more i won't pull the punches...
A KNUCLE SANDWICH IS WHAT YOU'LL GET!!
time to bring on the fight

2009-08-15T15:45:00.001+08:00

Jamie's Law(credit to soshi)
S1 + S2 = H/Sf
where S1 = Starbucks and S2 = Shoes and H = Happy and Sf = Superficial

On another note
at least we've moved on from then

2009-08-12T11:26:00.003+08:00

THEY SAY MONEY CAN'T BUY HAPPINESS...
BUT IT CAN BUY STARBUCKS...
THAT'S CLOSE ENOUGH

STARBUCKS CRAVING,WHO CAN HANDLE IT?

2009-08-09T01:26:00.002+08:00

sheesh...i'm supposed 2 be studying but i spent e whole day playing airline manager and dragonica...uh oh...i'm gg 2 buang my tests and exams alr...=(( better not let tt happen for my UK dream is gg 2 be gone like poof..shall study later,promise i will [:

and to Mr Clarence Lim
the first time was a yes
second time was a no
the third time is still a no

p.s. I never go back to the old patch of grass

2009-07-27T13:50:00.002+08:00

haha....it always feels good to be a helping hand to other...and thats why i find those ppl who put others before self is reallie someone we can salute to...ytd i&e event was totally awesome...though starting and planning e whole thing e whole event was tough,interacting with the kids was pure fun...and reallie its a joy to see their smile...no wonder they say kids's smiles are always e sweetest...anw gg 2 see my 2 lovely nieces this fri....
p.s js...u pang sei kia....nvr play dgn last night...-.-

wonder if he knows i'm tinking of him...=/

2009-07-23T04:35:00.003+08:00

just wanna talk 2 u
just wanna see u
just missing u
just too afraid to tell u

i'm quite sure its u...

but i can't read ur mind...

2009-07-19T03:51:00.003+08:00

i suddenly feel very calm...dunno why but its like in e quietness of the night,all i can heard is my itunes playing...not sleepy tonight idky...might be starbucks...

and just now i went out with kylene and lydia...thanks girls for the birthday present..i love tad teddy,must have cost u all a bomb,next time dun spend so much...and e video is nice...funny i should say...

side tracking now...there has been this thing gg through my mind...currently tinking now..what i'm actually doing with my life...cause its like quite messy now,things are gg to get better i'm sure...but thinking back,i'm still holding onto something,idk what.....been seeing quite a lot of old images in my head recently...its like e thing i'm holding on is something tt i'm protecting...but protecting against what idk???and somehow...i feel excited and scared for next sat...if i can get e day with someone...its more scary than gg out alone with a guy i swear...
and just now kylene told me jaiya's got a new bf...but at 1st she was hesitant abt telling me cause of various reasons...but i couldn't be happier for my besties to get their own bfs...someone who loves/care for them =) if given a choice i rather see all my friends be happy in their own ways and get nothing for myself...i won't mind at all...
apart from that...since i'm 18 now...its only 7years more to being 25...why talk abt 25 now when i'm only 18 if u're wondering...well simple reason is tt,e other day me and kylene were talking abt what we wanna do next time...and how successful we'll be in our own way....well apprently kylene hasn't made up her mind to where she wants to study for uni....lydia too and what's more jaiya....for me it isn't any better....so i somehow realised tt i'll either make the best out of it or a total mess...and i swear my dad wants me to go to sydney u or NSW...but its like i feel right,if i control my future,why not let me decide instead of deciding it for me...there's this irony sometimes....but i certainly know tt one day the 4 of us is gg to sit down and when we look back at our past,we'll nvr forget the times we had...KYLENE,LYDIA,JAIYA:I'LL KEEP THAT CD OF MINE AND WE SHALL WATCH IT AGAIN WHEN WE'RE 25...LETS MAKE A DATE,16.07.2016 SET???

2009-07-13T09:16:00.001+08:00

can you two just freaking shut up in the morning,let me have some peace

2009-07-11T12:54:00.002+08:00

times have indeed changed since i attended asthetics night ytd night...and i tell u e performance was alright...but i love seeing my besties and my ex teachers again,some are alr married,some have their own apprentice,and some are still e same as ever...

and a lot of us look different in our outfits,we have all indeed grown much more mature than before,and we could barely recognise each other..but we all haven't forgotten e times we had when we were 13-16

and ytd night seriously made me tink after having a convo with my besties...somehow it make me realised tt if we're gg back for the next asthetics night we're gg 2 be like frigging 20years old,which makes us like almost at e end of poly life or for some,start of uni life...and e tot of what happens after tt scared me,cause me and kylene were talking what we're gg 2 go after in e future...and somehow its either a sync or swim thing eh??and thanks for my 3besties for being of supportive of me...u'll always be in my heart BESTIE FTW!!!....okay pictures up soon i promise =)

p.s.i reallie want to know if u're gg 2 be the next one?

2009-07-09T23:30:00.002+08:00

i finally lost my temper at e girls...for once..
its like they dun frigging take training seriously...
and its just 2more weeks 2 street netball...
and they dun know how strong e teams can be
i've played it last year and got trashed like hell
tts why i dun want 2 see my girls being trashed like hell during e games
and then they all can just anyhow count e passes
walk also walk so slowly....
dun shout out for the ball..
and they just can't seem to frigging communicate with each other..
so many come late...
some of u dun even want to master e basics...
some just too lazy to do proper passes...
some just want to play match...
some are too overpowering..
some are too shy...
wtf is this man...
play like a team pls girls...
dun go f* e whole thing up
i see u all so nua during e ball handing and passes..
u tink i not angry...
its just tt every week me and shu nvr say anything one
we can spend 1 over hour doing passes...
no prob with us one...
and everytime u all play matches...
every week tell u abt giving and making space...
in e end need remind u all
so tt means if i not there,u all won't rmb anything tt i told u all last week lah???
and doesn't mean tt there's no competitive seniors watching u all
mean u all can go climb over me and shu's head...
we seriously damm relaxed abt ur behaviour alr lor
last year where got so relaxed..
if have we alr tio like shit man....
just frigging wake up and play properly lah..
its not tt hard 2 do tt is it??

p.s. their passes suck,their stepping suck,their communication sucks,and i bloody hell tried to correct them...but they dun want to put in e effort...wth am i supposed to do man...
p.s. dun look at me these days and feel as if i freaking owe u sth...dun go acting like some big f***

2009-07-09T02:05:00.002+08:00

haha...er..i wnated 2 blog sth just now..but i can't rmb wat exactly...its to rant abt sth but yea....dun feel like typing e details over here....
but anw...projects have finally got into my 2nd year life....so yea...just chiong lor...not as if i nvr chiong b4 like tt.....

and and milli...tell ur mummy tt i dun like js....he's only a friend 2 me....and tell mel tt i'll marry you someday....and James ur bf isn't fake...XD
okayyy..i dun exactly know wat i typing so yea...gfs are love man!!!!

p.s. its 1 more day...oh yay can't wait for asthetics night!!whoopee!!!

2009-07-06T12:05:00.000+08:00

reallie touched cause u all cared...

2009-07-05T01:37:00.001+08:00

arg....i dun get why i keep on pressing 9877 on my keypad when i call milli instead of 9878....damm it....i seriously dun look forward 2 tt day...

2009-07-04T01:34:00.002+08:00

OH YEA OH YEA!!!
ASTHETICS NIGHT IS NEXT FRI
WOOHOO!!!

pardon for being high at this odd hour..

2009-07-03T00:30:00.002+08:00

CRYING

a penny for toughts

maybe the feelings we use the most is crying

there's so many reasons why one can cry

its like u cry cause u're overjoyed

cry cause u're sad

cry cause u're touched

cry cause of someone's leaving

cry cause of guilt

cry when u laugh too hard

cry without a reason

cry cause of minor stupid things

cry over "spilt milk"

cry over memories

cry for a million things

so because of that....maybe crying is what we're reallie good at doing instead of e others like being happy,emo,high,crazy,angry,upset...etc etc...

p.s. asthetics night is so close,just 7more days

p.p.s my stamina still sucks

2009-07-01T01:02:00.001+08:00

To find what you're here for
Open another door
But I'm not sure anymore
It's just so hard

2009-06-28T13:06:00.004+08:00

i've never been so happy to be scolded cause i reallie deserved it...
and i swear i'm running out of steam alr...
but somehow i just keep on pushing and pushing...
and i suddenly hate e feeling of being so lonely and empty...
**** ******* *** ***** *** **** *** **** *** ***

2009-06-26T21:59:00.003+08:00

here i sit in my room

listening to that song

clicking on that F5 button

waiting for your reply

with my aching heart

to think i could put you down

what an idiot i am

and it all happened for a reason

because you still live in me...

2009-06-25T00:17:00.002+08:00

been running lots these day cause training for marathon cause i want challenge myself...and and i saw this line in my dream somewhere..haven't figured it out wat it means though it say...

strong heartbeats in a weak heart,but yet it never dies off because of a strong mind

i get e strong mind part...but e 1st part i dun exactly get it...it has got me thinking man...anw i'll be running lots these days to build up my stamina =)....run run run...

2009-06-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

MY DEAR GIRLS THERE'S SO MUCH FOR US TO CATCH UP ON FRI!!PROMISE YOU ALL TT I'LL RUSH DOWN TO SEE YOU AFTER MY BRIEFING ON FRI =)

and kylene and jaiya i can't wait for asthetics night on e 10th of july!!!*screams* omg omg..i'm so excited...and yes kylene we are gg back to watch it this year like we promised ourselves when we were in our sweet 16...and and...jaiya seriously thanks for getting us tickets if not we all probably have forgotten abt asthetics night due to us being so busy with school work!!!LYDIA GO BACK AND WATCH WITH US..I PROMISE THERE'LL BE A SURPRISE FOR YOU!!

and kylene see this

we shall take another picture like this on e 10th of july and compare it to this and see how much we've changed in 2years =)

SEEN TENG LOVE YOU ALL LOTS...SEE YA GIRLS ON FRI!!!*muacks and winks*

2009-06-22T22:09:00.000+08:00

bleeding.....
drip..drip..drip..

2009-06-22T19:48:00.002+08:00

in a moment everything can change
wat if ** *** ***** ** **
wat if ** is *** ***

2009-06-20T23:22:00.001+08:00

OIH SAM!!!DON'T SMOKE LAH YOU...TSKTSKTSK...

THROW UR NEW PACKET OF CIGRATTES AWAY!!!

2009-06-19T14:58:00.001+08:00

******
empty or broken promise??
just can't figure it out...

2009-06-18T13:07:00.000+08:00

arg...i'm sleepy...omg so much has happened lately..but more of like its leaving me with lots of tots....its really mind boggling at times and okay lets put it in chi 没意思了 reallie like....idk lah...maybe its me reading too much into it,but maybe all e while i've been innocent abt stuff ard me...aiya dunno lah...emo is here to stay again...dun tink i'm exactly speaking much sense here anw...
anw Jamie is so in debt to my bank acc tt i can say bye bye to my red havanias slipper,red crumpler bag and red ipod nano...

你还记得你答应我什么吗
可是现在变成什么了
你说你不会这样做的
我怀疑你是否记得你答应我吗
我认识的你更以前不一样了
人始终会变得
那个道理我理解
可是我没想到这一天会来得这样快
我以前有想过这件事
如果变成这样应该怎么办呢
我以前没有什么办法
现在也是一样
将来的画面会是怎么样呢？
你有对我说过的一切我全记得
不要忘记你身边的朋友
以前我们什么心事都可以说
可是现在你现在么都没说
我不知道你在想什么
我只能劝你好好想清楚
别做错决定
一言既出，四马难追

2009-06-17T03:00:00.001+08:00

HAHA,TRAINING TOMORROW AND LOOK AT THE TIME JAMIE IS STILL ONLINE!!!! =)

faster than i thought

2009-06-09T17:48:00.003+08:00

omggg...Jamie is super dead for inac.....-murdered-

p.s. my dad can never be a spy...

2009-06-07T03:03:00.003+08:00

if i was someone else,would we be 2gether..

my tears don't drop for just anyone..

2009-06-07T02:08:00.005+08:00

hai~
JAMIE CHOI YOU BETTER GET UR INAC UNDERSTOOD!!!
die liao,wasted 1 whole day doing like nth much..=/
when i wanna mug,i want slp
when i wanna slp,i wanna mug
seriously wth lah!!! >.<

and my gawd....seems like my schedule is so freaking packed lah.....and almost everyday go out meet ppl whom i haven't seen for 1year+ and at e rate i'm spending money,dun need buy red crumpler bag alr for my birthday alr =.=......better start saving money liao...=/

if there any more space to give it 100%

2009-06-04T01:26:00.006+08:00

arg...i freaking lost my student card AGAIN!!!sian-ed

and i have 2 admit sometimes guys are dumb and a pain in e ass.....no offence thou....

* ***** ******* ** * ****** ** ******* **********

haha...a billion and 1 things to do with ur bestie

and no.1 on the list is bitching abt stuff =]

2009-06-02T20:50:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MILLI
hope u liked e present and there's part 2 coming up...heehee...
God Bless ya lubb euu lotss lotss....

i don't deserve it

2009-06-01T11:20:00.002+08:00

haha...love darling,love milli,love kylene....love almost everyone.....[:
JAMIE STILL LOVE HER gfs and besties [:

and darling missed you so much and and i'll tink over everything properly...i'll rmb tt i'm blessed and such no worries alright [:
and and milli ur birthday 2moro cfm no die okay promise???though val say she want to settle office politics,tt one not my business alr hor,XD

let go?

2009-05-31T17:52:00.001+08:00

2nd chance?

lost and emoing

2009-05-30T13:18:00.002+08:00

whee~ its sat and i'm gg 2 spend it by mugging,using lappie and watch a movie in e evening....anw...1st 1st i wanna thank kylene for helping me find another princess diaries book10 by getting it at a cheaper price,i'm reallie reallie reallie sorry tt i damaged e old one....just go ahead and get another one,i'll pay for it [: well,i haven't been exactly been blogging much abt e past few weeks..mainly cause i was to busy being a workaholic...i swear i love it man XD

anw someone's birthday coming ah,heehee,milli promise u won't die on tt day...i was only joking e other time hahaha....haha,alright i gotta get back 2 mugging soon,i hope i dun flunk my inac =((( yea better chiong now sia,wanna pull up my gpa man....and and alee if u see this
i <3 alee my tadu

till then toodles ppl,jame has 2 get back to being a workaholic...hahaha...
P.S.
-KYLENE,LYDIA,JAIYA WE NEEDA MEET UP SOON!!!MISS YOU ALL LIKE HELL MAN!!!
-SAM~ GO OUT SOON ALRIGHT???DRINKS???BAR??BIRTHDAY BASH??YOUR CHOICE [:
-SERENA DARLING MEET UP SOON ALSO,GET #1 AND JASON,WE GO K ALRIGHT??? :D

2009-05-30T00:29:00.001+08:00

*** * **** ***** **** ***??
* ** **** **** ******** **** ***...
haha,coded msg which none can decipher,XD

2009-05-25T19:41:00.002+08:00

TO DO LIST
1.Save lots of money
2.Spend 50bucks per 2weeks
3.ONLY satisfy shopping needs if i have enough money
-Red Crumpler Bag
-Red ipod nano G4
-Red Brazil Havanias Slippers
-Speedo swimsuit(my old one cannot wear liao)
4.Get back on the exercise regime
5.Swim more
6.Chiong mugging for CT
7.Spend more time with baby

2009-05-22T13:37:00.001+08:00

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if you never went away?
What if we could never find the words to speak?
What about now?
What about 3+years then?

2009-05-17T23:17:00.002+08:00

hai~
jamie dun exactly feel like talking these days...
so if i seem a little too quiet then pardon me...
and i dun exactly feel very well these days
i tink fatigue is catching up with me...=/
but on a lighter note,my cous big day is coming
and i'm e EMCEE!!!OH MY GAWD!!!
yea and its in chi somemore...
whee...well done...gotta go work on my chi
and there's so many things to do b4 e wedding....
rehearsals and sutff like tt...
oh well....can't do much abt it...
and these days are so boring..
i dun exactly feel like switching on e lappie sometimes
surprisingly i rather mug....XD
lolololol
oh oh and i still haven't exactly recovered from my illness
it made me lost all my stamina
i swam just now and was panting like mad lurh...
sucks totally.....
and my old injury's back...
needa start using leukoplast 2moro hai~
okay jamie has to start gg 2 bed alr,she's freaking tired
toodles ppl!!

if ppl jus speak their own mind instead of saying white lies,i swear e world will be a much better place...

2009-05-11T23:55:00.002+08:00

suddenly my life's changing way too fast which i can't even figure it out,i don't seem to be the old me anymore

don't seem to know what i want anymore

there's just too many things in my life

its all over the place

what's that thing i'm after now

i don't exactly know,or maybe i do but i just can't say it out

it just is no longer the same anymore

identiy crisis

some scars don't show,some wounds don't heal

i think i need ur help again

but seems like its not gg to be possible any time soon

i'm just lost alr,plain lost

2009-05-10T00:25:00.002+08:00

well been a reallie long time since i've last updated basically i dun reallie have much 2 say....so yea...anw sch's been getting pretty boring,well maybe i am also doing nth much besides mugging day in and out...oh and yea i finally use e pink form in sch cause i was sick and i had a freaking high fever which doc say i suffer from bronchitis and amt of medicine is like....freaking scary lah,5kinds leh...sucks lah totally...at least now i'm okay alr,heehee

and and...netball i love,converse red shoes i like,new dresses are nice also [:
okay this is such a random post =.=

2009-04-25T11:40:00.000+08:00

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

All the streets where I walked alone, with nowhere to go
I've come to an end

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find (what you will find)

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go (I want you to know)
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

2009-04-24T17:39:00.000+08:00

NEXT WEEK I SHALL EMO =((((
AND NO ONE IS TO FREAKING CHUP INTO MY PRAC....

counting down e last 30days

2009-04-16T01:41:00.000+08:00

the same of way
the same of thinking
the same old obsession
the same of reason
the same old sadness in me
the same of missing feeling
the same of path
which i don't wanna walk again
but yet here i am walking down that same old path
where it heads to,i know
but i still want to walk it
cause i know i can't let it go
cause i know it'll still hurt me after so long
cause i know its gonna leave another scar on me
cause i can see what's gonna happen
cause i just can't put it down
cause it leaves me wanting for more
cause i know its gonna make me cry
cause it isn't ever easy to forget it all
cause i can never do the same thing yet again

i climbed out of the pit
and fallen back in so many times
when will i learn
will i ever learn
i don't know and don't wanna know
cause i know when i know it
its gonna be all too late
and i don't want it to be over
but it won't be soon before long till its over
and thats when i won't ever be me again...

2009-04-11T02:14:00.000+08:00

GLs FOC is over,sad right???but now we're SGLs alr *rejoice*

well basically we ran a very very good camp,our freshies were so high they want another day of camp...kudos to everyone...basically we all have grown so much from the start

recruitment
trainings
dance
events
etc etc
FOC!!!!!!!!!!!!

and it also shows that with our strength of 24 we can still do it one,cause we are 1 big family with 1 big heart all with 1 goal to make that FOC a huge success

to FOOD COMM
u 2 rock 2 e core man,serving us food,cause if no food=we all die from hunger thanks a lot man!!!!

to LOGAMES
all of ur games are super fun,and make e freshies super high!!!i love it man and i'm sure our freshies did too!!!

to WELFARE
we lost all our voices but we made e freshies go high and crazy like tt they love us lots and we do too!!!!!!WE ARE ZAI PPL!!!

to e current batch of AGLs
thanks for all of ur help,without u all this camp is not even possible at all!!!!

to e current batch of AAGLs
thanks for everything i tink hop night would gg if u all didn't help us....cause we reallie didn't know wat 2 do at all

to MULAN
u guys rock and miss u all alr must faster plan outing okayyy????GL Jamie love u all haha

*on a sidenote:
FOC has certainly nvr fail to make me happy from a freshie to a GL the waiting time seems so long but mainly i was reminded of my days of being a freshie the times i had where i can nvr go back in time 2 experience it again for it happens only once in a life time that why i'm proud to call myself a GL and the 24 of us also!!!! once a GL always a GL nothing can change that!!!!

2009-04-04T02:13:00.003+08:00

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2009-03-29T02:50:00.001+08:00

DON'T MESS WITH US CAUSE WE WILL WIN THE WAR!!!!

2009-03-22T00:40:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KYLENE

i tink i practically spammed u,XD

2009-03-14T10:02:00.000+08:00

whee....camp back from trial camp like since wed but haven't got time 2 blog......I'M IN WELFARE!!!!!!!like seriously shocking man,nvr expect cause i tot all e while i'm in logistics...now i can play with e freshies and get "dead" by my fellows GLs if they sabo me in e games,XD but nvm lah all fun fun one,heehee
i pray tt i'm not the welfare head
and today is a very special day love it man =))))

2009-03-06T23:43:00.000+08:00

POWER PACK WEEK

well this week has been very busy for me until i lost count of e dates and days alr like seriously =.=

anw i was at chalet from sun-tues which was damm fun cause got 2 bond more with e GLs and guess wat????i got a big freaking surprise i met zhengyan and sam chalet and coincidentally they were staying in e next door chalet like wat a small world man...got pics 2 show XD

i swear i look damm freaking tired here...

and zhengyan is like forever wearing green when i see him

so yea and then there was d&d from wed-fri...we actually helped in prep work,during e event and e cleaning up...e only thing i rmb abt d&d is registration book giving out tickets and receipts and jeremy dragging me and baby 2 dance like =.= so yea and i love baby,he damm cute can pls...lol

oh if u want see pics,go my fb acc to see,i late 2 post them up here

and just now i slept like for 4hrs cause really tired,haven't been slping much this week and next week gonna be busy also got like trial camp dip plus lesson which is equal to H3 chem and yea...gonna be damm busy lah....till then toodles and baby i'll try 2 start rmbing e date,been so busy tt i forgot...sryy =)))

2009-02-26T01:24:00.001+08:00

i love him and he loves me =)))))

2009-02-21T14:56:00.000+08:00

exams coming which mean more time after tt...got dip plus chalet,trial camp,FOC,girlfriends,besties,him and many many more haha

well i've been able to put down what has happened over e past 2weeks...its hard but we know tt he'll always be in our hearts [:

2009-02-16T02:08:00.000+08:00

life is a storybook with many chapters

though some of the chapters are hard 2 read

we still have to finish that chapter,close it to move on to the rest of the storybook

2009-02-12T00:40:00.000+08:00

I TALKED TO ***** ***
i finally talked to ***** *** like reallie finally,i also dunno why 2day i finally got e courage to call her but yea...we talked just like best of friends and the feeling was just great,i mean it took my mind off some stuff and yes somehow my decision is alr clear...it doesn't matter how many days tt ***** *** left me but 1 thing for sure is tt we definitely still think the same abt matters laugh abt it...and we can talk as if our age gap isn't tt big....and i know ***** *** so well tt i can alr predict wat she gonna tell me,it just feels like ***'s so close 2 me but yet again we're actually quite far in distance...and and...i seriously feel like a jerk,after so long then call her and have all e stupid tots,only when there's like trouble then call her...someone slap me pls...i'm so blessed then i always forget abt it...hai....

anw....there's just too many things happening this few days,i just dun wanna see some ppl collaspe so pls take good care of urself ppl...dear Jamie always give u all support no matter wat happens,so yea....okok gotta go now toodles

#guess i know how i feel abt you know and we'll always be friends very close friends [:

2009-02-08T19:51:00.000+08:00

I know you'ld tell me this
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

and i know i'll tell you this
Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You’ll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there’re so many things that I want you to know
I won’t give up till it’s over
If it takes you forever
I want you to know

When I hear your voice
Its drowning in a whisper
It’s just skins and bones
There’s nothing left to take
No matter what I do I can’t make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there’re so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it’s over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down
I’ll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I’ll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I’ll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I’ll be there for you

If only I could find the answer
To take it all away
Sometimes i wish i could save you
And there’re so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
I wish I could save youI want you to know
I wish I could save you

maybe tts why i'm still holding on to this
1287days and still counting...

2009-02-06T13:42:00.002+08:00

Love my girlfriends and besties so much tt i rmbed this

Blogged in April 08
ME:I know you all love me but Milli loves me more [:
Said it in Feb 09
Ying Li:I love you all but i love Jamie more XD

haha...see how much i just love them???maybe tts why i dun need to have a bf to get love,cause love is in all kinds of aspects XD

anw getting back to topic...there's a lot of things happening this week and maybe e week before also,but i've decided to put it all down and forget it once and for all until exams are over then maybe i'll start worrying abt it...and and i'm gonna take diploma plus in chem like coolio man...finally i'm in the class alr [: *Jamie Choi will be even more busier* then wat's coming up after exams are like a lot of stuff,trial camp,FOC preperation,dip plus,CIP stuff...and some more lah so yea...gonna be busy,but like it tt way cause i'm a workAHOlic,till then toodles,dear Jamie here has got to study alr [: although i dun tink i'll be studying now =.=

2009-02-04T03:32:00.000+08:00

when merry-go-round is now a firm triangle...
you safe keep the truth for ur protection
we need to know the truth to stop our minds from guessing

episode 2 part 3 was an exciting episode...now lets watch episode 2 part 4 unfold

2009-02-03T09:20:00.000+08:00

you got me on a ride that will never stop,can't stop
i wanna get down it but u won't let me
you make my heart beat fast,then you make it stop completely
i thought you were a sub,but it seems not now
at time you care so much and at time you ignore it totally
at time i want your attention and you want mine
you make me confused and lost
so what do i do now???

seems like everything's happening for a reason,and even if we're able to slavage the situation,we'll still won't be the same as we would be before,i just feel like i'm so caught up in a merry go round and stuck in a russian roulette game...

episode 2 part 3

2009-02-01T11:31:00.000+08:00

LIFE'S A REALITY,YOU HAVE TO WAKE UP FROM YOUR DREAMS
Oh well i practically didn't slp e whole of last night,was up talking on the phone....and i actually realised tt everyone wants to have their own perfect world...but e thing is tt nothing is perfect and there's no such thing as perfect in the 1st place....cause if u ask me i also dunno lah cause i dun believe in being perfect and maybe tts why i like being unperfect,getting hurt,hurting ppl around me,getting a whole lots of emotions and stuff like tt...so yea...maybe its because of this perfect thingy tt makes ppl dun wanna wake up to reality,they always think that they are safe in their dreams,but they dun exactly see wat's actually brewing under....which is also somewat quite sad...maybe its just tt i'm different from all of you all,tts why sometimes its hard to relate my tinking to others...but as long as my besties and girlfriends can understand can alr....

I LOVE MY BESTIES AND GIRLFRIENDS AND YOU ALL WILL ALWAYS BE #1 IN MY HEART NO MATTER WAT HAPPENS!!!!

2009-02-01T00:26:00.000+08:00

so much has happened lately...and now i know that mummy is always right...my mummy's forever so smart so stop saying tt u've a brain smaller than a pea...haha...and i promise u no relationships b4 18 okay...haha...[:

anw...sch's been getting really busy these days...and with so much probs i hate weekends and gg home on normal sch day...cause its like so boring and stuff like tt...but no choice lurh....oh ya forgot this....Ying Li no matter wat happens i'll always love u okay [:

okok Jamie over here has to study for physio and maths alr...toodles

#guess i've made my choice tt i still can't forget you,1280days and counting...another 6more months and its gonna be 4years since e day u left

2009-01-27T02:47:00.000+08:00

1276days since u left my life....is it time to really put it down once and for all now???or is it just like the other times when i thought that i could but i couldn't do it in the end...maybe somehow there's still a little part of me tt's still holding on...maybe i'm alr over you...but all i know is tt...without you there won't be the me,e stronger,resilience me....我是你教出来的,you molded me,my life,my future,my everything...and now i've to decide if its to end back then or will it still continue on...

2009-01-24T13:32:00.003+08:00

been such a wreck this week...dun want 2 elaborate...i only know it's getting like...some should just really stop it,some i know will always be there for me...LOVE ALL MY GIRLFRIENDS LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS...JAMIE LOVES YOU ALL!!!!!!

to get the msg across i first have 2 get it through myself

2009-01-18T11:23:00.000+08:00

I CAME HOME,BEING CHANGED IN 2WAYS
hmm...well this week has passed so fast again...another few blinks its gonna be exams alr ]: anw...getting on 2 e main stuff...i changed myself in 2ways today...why so leh...cause i'm a medic who's waiting for my cert [: another is tt i've been such a resilience person e whole of ytd and today...evidence is in sport climbing and the night cycling...

well its like 16th&17th of Jan is such a fun day...lets c ah

16012009
0000:was doing IPC practical work
0000-0115:was doing IPC lab report
0115-0300:watch videos on youtube and chat online
0300-0700:slp
0700:wake yingli up
0700-0800:slp
0800-1030:wake up,collect yingli's lappie then go sch
1030-1300:D&D booth
1300-1500:CATS lesson
1500-1700:Sport climbing,well i did abselling,and climbed 9m of the high difficulty wall [:
1700-2045-go home shower eat dinner go back sch
2045-000:night cycling

17012009
0000:i was in sch waiting for night cycling to start
0001-0630:cycled from sch to newton hawker centre then back to sch
0630-0830:showered in sch,eat hotcakes for breakfast(i actually couldn't finish my milo)
0831-0935:travelling time to RCTC for medic course,e bunch of us were actually late for 35mins
0936-1200:refresh contents of medic course
1200-1230:nap in class
1230-1500:medic theory and exam(i passed)
1500-1730:went to justacia to eat and walk walk ard plaza sing
1730-2015:take super long bus rides just to slp on it
2015-2130:Dinner with yingli and irfan and wait with irfan for his bus
2130-2215:wait for yingli to get onto bus then take bus home after tt [:
2215-0000:use com,talk 2 gwen,then go slp

so yea tt has been my 2 days of busy busy week...well there's more 2 come esp on chi new year week...oh oh and e total no. of hours i slp this week is 34hrs...haha somewat was more than i expected,hehe....

2009-01-13T02:24:00.000+08:00

ROUGH DAY OUT THERE
seriously 2day is e day where i got so dulan and super fun and okay oh oh and also a part of me got mad with someone...like seriously...dulan cause of projects..like so much probs and stuff and also e class ppl...super fun cause netball ivp semi's and OMG NUS won TP by just 1 freaking point....then e okay is e other stuff...e got mad with someone is tt is just plain unreasonable...and to someone arh...u not pretty when you * [:

okok,still got work 2 be done...sian...i tink this week i might not have more than 24hrs of sleep

2009-01-09T02:06:00.000+08:00

HEALTH STATUS
hmm...your dear workAHOlic here has like taken a few health test today,to conclude its like this

LOW blood pressure(107/53)
blood group:A+
underweight range for BMI(18+)
60HEARTbeats per minute
STRESSED and SHAGGED body

like seriously...idk lah this week is like...quite a rough week for me...and idk why someone just won't put down his pride and start all over again...its like...idk if its e person or me...but it just seems to me tt you aren't trying hard enough....i've alr had enough alr lah....like seriously i'm stepping into shit time and time again,damm freaking dulan alr lah......forget it lah,just start numbing myself with work all over again,maybe tts why i enjoy being a workAHOlic...

2009-01-07T14:40:00.000+08:00

pissed out and living in a super messed up life

2009-01-04T17:25:00.004+08:00

whatever will be - vanessa hudgens
Vanessa Hudgens Whatever Will be Lyrics:
Sometimes I feel like I'm a
bird with broken wings
At times I dread my now and
envy where I've been
But that's when quiet wisdom takes control
At least I've got a story no one's told

I finally learned to say
Whatever will be will be
I've learned to take
The good, the bad and breathe
'Cause although we like
To know what life's got planned
No one knows if shooting stars will land

These days it feels naive to
put your faith in hope
To imitate a child, fall
backwards on the snow
'Cause that's when fears will
usually lead you blind
But now I try to under-analyse

I finally learned to say
Whatever will be will be
I've learned to take
The good, the bad and breathe
'Cause although we like
To know what life's got planned
No one knows if shooting stars will land

Is the rope I walk wearing thin?
Is the life I love caving in?
Is the weight on your mind
A heavy black bird caged inside?

Say
Whatever will be will be
Take
The good, the bad
Just breathe
'Cause although we like
To know what life's got planned
No one knows if shooting stars will land

Whatever will be will be
I learned to take
The good, the bad and breathe
'Cause although we like
To know what life's got planned
Thing like that are never in your hands
No one knows if shooting stars will land

2009-01-03T01:08:00.000+08:00

I DIDN'T ALLOW MYSELF TO TALK ABT ... YTD
haha..i tink e title only jyan and yingli will understand,haha i'm serious...anyway i was with them this afternoon shopping ard for stuff....wat stuff cannot say later jyan cfm kill me one [: anyway yingli as usual was like late...but e funny thing is tt they 2 bully me on e bus lor...diao...and i want to tell yingli this
NEXT TIME U WANT SQUEEZE MY FATS SQUEEZE PROPERLY HOR...U GRABBED MY RIBCAGE JUST NOW LAH =.=

so yea...anyway i'm officially damm broke...like seriously no money for next week lah...and its sch reopen next week...but i dun want go back sch,cause its gonna be awkward...can i have some ways 2 skip sch besides buying MC?????

sian to the max man......toodles everyone gotta do stuff for ppl's birthday now...hai...

2009-01-01T02:24:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!ITS 2009 AND I MUST THANK EVERYONE WHO HAS MADE MY 2008 FUN!!!!

anyway my new yer resolutions can be found in e last post...but yea just a short update abt ytd,hehe...well i was like at ecp on e 30th...then we gave irfan a big big surprise...then yingli and me went bitch abt stuff at e beach after tt,hehe...

well then just ytd...went 2 bpp to buy irfan's present and then send it 2 his house....so after tt...we waited for wenliang like damm freaking long...after tt walked hortpark and then they came 2 my house...so yea...i dranks like 1.5bottles of lime breezers today...hehe...[:

anyway i'm like tired now,so gonna slp,toodles ppl have fun its the NEW YEAR,Life is short,break the rules,forgive and forget quickly,love truly,laugh uncontrollably and never regret anything that made you smile[:

2008-12-30T11:18:00.000+08:00

2008
omg i tell u the year 2008 is like gone so fast lah...and its like i just can't seem to find the word to describle what this year has been....so many things have happened this year,well thinking back i seriously can't rmb much lah,hmm..in point form lets c

O's results
am now in poly,BMS
made new friends
lost some friends along the way
know more ppl who can understand me
loving my besties even more
become more understand,although at some points i fail like totally
love the people ard me even more
broken a few ppl's heart
having lots of fun with the GLs
have a very long post name in NP netball
put with 2 performances this year
watch uncountable movies
always buying/ordering cake for whoeva's birthday except for a few which i totally didn't plan anything [:
trying to understand myself better
etc,etc,etc....which i can't rmb

well....then new year resolutions for 2009

always be understanding
more patient
to find out more abt myself(cause life is a journey to know more abt urself[:)
wish that everyone around gets what they want for next year and bless then always
spent more time with all my besties and gfs cause i love them to a million bits and pieces [:

2008-12-30T00:23:00.000+08:00

Everyone has a personality of a cartoon character.Have you ever asked yourself what cartoon character you most resemble?
Answer all the questions (only 10) with what describes you best, add up all your Points (which are next to the answer that you choose) at the end and look for your results. Do not cheat by looking at the end of the post before you are done. Tag 8 of your friends to do it too!

1. Which one of the following describes the perfect date?
a) Candlelight dinner (4 pts.)
b) Fun/Theme Park (2 pts.)
c) Painting in the park (5 pts)
d) Rock concert (1 pt.)
e) Going to the movies (3 pts)

2. What is your favourite type of music?
a) Rock and Roll (2 pts.)
b) Alternative (1 pt.)
c) Soft Rock (4 pts.)
d) Country (5 pts )
e) Pop (3 pts.)

3. What type of movies do you prefer?
a) Comedy (2 pts.)
b) Horror (1 pt.)
c) Musical (3 pts.)
d) Romance (4 pts.)
e) Documentary (5 pts.)

4. Which one of these occupations would you choose if you only could choose one of these?
a) Waiter (4 pts.)
b) Professional Sports Player (5 pts.)
c) Teacher (3 pts.)
d) Police (2 pts.)
e) Cashier (1 pt)

5.What do you do with your spare time?
a) Exercise (5 pts.)
b) Read (4 pts.)
c) Watch television (2 pts.)
d) Listen to music (1 pt.)
e) Sleep (3 pts.)

6. Which one of the following colors do you like best?
a) Yellow (1 pt.)
b) White (5 pts.)
c) Sky Blue (3 pts)
d) Dark Blue(2 pts.)
e) Red (4 pts.)
[dun ask me why i like white cause tts e only colour i like among all e rest]

7. What do you prefer to eat?
a) Snow (3 pts.)
b) Pizza (2 pts.)
c) Sushi (1 pt.)
d) Pasta (4 pts.)
e) Salad (5 pts.)
[omg all e food i also like,but i'm always a sucker for sushi]

8. What is your favorite holiday ?
a) Halloween(1 pt.)
b) Christmas (3 pts.)
c) New Year (2 pts.)
d) Valentine's Day (4 pts.)
e) Thanksgiving (5 pts.)
[new year,new start,a clean break from the year b4]

9. If you could go to one of these places which one would it be?
a) Paris (4 pts.)
b) Spain (5 pts)
c) Las Vegas (1 pt)
d) Hawaii (4 pts)
e) Hollywood (3 pts)
[omg paris is like my dream place for holiday]

10. With which of the following would you prefer to spend time with?
a ) Someone Smart (5 pts.)
b) Someone attractive (2 pts.)
c) Someone who likes to Party (1 pt.)
d) Someone who always has fun (3 pts.)
e) Someone very sentimental (4 pts.)

Now add up your points and find out the answer you have been waiting for!

(10-16 points) You are Garfield : You are very comfortable, easy going, and you definitely know how to have fun but sometimes you take it to an extreme. You always know what you are doing and you are always in control of your life. Others may not see things as you do, but that doesn't mean that you always have to do what is right. Try to remember, your happy spirit may hurt you or others.
(17-23 points) You are Snoopy: You are fun; you are very cool and popular. You alw ays know what's in and you ' re never out of style , you are good at knowing how to satisfy everyone else. You have probably disappeared for a few days more than once but you always come home with the family values that you learned Being married and having children are important to you, but only after you have had your share of fun times
(24-28 points) You are Elmo:You have lots of friends and you are also popular, always willing to give advice and help out a person in need. You are very optimistic and you always see the bright side of things. Some good advice: try not to be too much of a dreamer. Dreaming too big could cause many conflicts in your life.

(29-35 points) You are Sponge Bob Square Pants: You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never wants t o lose. You never cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your feelings. Life is a journey, it's funny and calm for the most part Stay away from traitors and jealous people and you will be stress free.
[haha,i wonder how true it is....well those tt i've changed to a different colour is so ME,but the rest idk lah...those tt i didn't change colour is tt i'm not sure,maybe i am a best friend to my besties,but the classic person tt everyone loves????eh.....]

(36-43 points) You are Charlie Brown: You are tender, you fall in love quickly but you are also very serious about all relationships. You are a family person. You call your Mom every Sunday. You have many friends and may occasionally forget a few Birthdays. Don't let your passion confuse you with reality.

(44-50 points ) You are Dexter: You are smart and definitely a thinker... Every situation is fronted with a plan. You have a brilliant mind. You demonstrate very strong family principles. You maintain a stable routine but neve r ignore a bad situation when it comes. Try to do less over thinking every once in a while to spice things up a bit with spontaneity

2008-12-29T14:20:00.003+08:00

SUNBURNT IS IN AGAIN!!!
haha,okok i got back from camp ytd and was like freaking tired,haha yea right???i slept at like wat close to 2am.....yingli see i told u my slping periods are changed to like 2am-9am...oh shitty idk wat to do when sch starts,i'll be so sleepy in sch man....damm!!!!

anyway camp was fun lah..cause it really taught all of us a lot of things lah...and to have fun and go high with the GLs is just uber uber fun...u can't buy these fun u get [: haha...and and its fun to get dirty with them...haha char kuay tiao...milky way...haha,whee....

and my phone hasn't been tt quiet for a while,cause everyday yingli would be like texting me....and like e past 2days i only got like a few msgs...1 from my sec sch class whom idk who's tt....and they ask me go for class outing....crazy sia...i so tired alr cfm won't go lah,anyway not many went also lah,so didn't really make a diff.....but then again the past few days has been somewhat a roller coaster ride for me...so many things happened lurh....some of them is like i alr forget it liao...other is like more responsibility and stuff like tt..so yea....back to wat i'm good at now,till then toodles [:

2008-12-26T00:24:00.000+08:00

love this song,love the lyrics stumbled upon it,but it used 2 be one of my favs last time,haha....

One Love - Blue

anyway 2moro i'm gonna have fun b4 training camp,i dunno wat 2 expect but i'm tinking tt its gonna be tough lah,haha....but i'll survive
JAMIE CHOI YOU CAN DO IT,JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!!AND RMB,WHEN THE GOING GETS TOUGH,THE TOUGH GETS GOING AND THATS WHERE YOU THINK OF ***** ***,SO DON'T GIVE UP,CAUSE YOU'LL SURVIVE!!!!

2008-12-23T13:42:00.001+08:00

I'M DAMM SHAG
hmm,okok lets c,went out with e big co ytd....went RCTC to pay up for e fees 1st....then had some little little stuff 2 settle.....after tt walked 2 taka to meet e rest for seoul garden.....i tell u ah wateva,hippie and bleh are super big losers,take like 2buses to get to taka from RCTC which is like not far away and its like i walked there and reach there faster than them its like =.=

anyway we went get tickets then ate seoul garden,tt wateva wanna act hero again,eat raw chicken...and....#1 dunno how 2 cook one...e next table where hippie,flexi panda,asyraf and daniel were sitting smelt e chao ta smell...so yea,haha...well we went walk walk after tt then met up with e rest,morgieie yingli,jyan and her sis....and we went watch twilight which is a nice movie some parts were like funny...well anyway i'm gonna read e whole series now,since i've alr dl e ebooks but after i finish my princess diaries book9....which is like soon....so yea till then i'm still tired,might just slp the whole day away....toodles ppl...

TO SOMEONE SPECIAL
it's 6months away to ur birthday...very soon i'll be seeing you then...6months isn't a short time neither is it very long...